Closer To Me

…I used to like you.

No…I used to LOVE you…

…I used to be WILD CRAZY and unapologetically IN LOVE with you!

You were my everything.

I just KNEW that it would always be me and you…forever.

You gave me comfort when I hurt.

You gave me grace when I messed up.

You gave me the reassurance that I could always try again tomorrow.

You were ALWAYS on my side, and I felt invincible with you there.

All I needed was a little more of you and the world would be right again.

You allowed me to dream a little bigger and run wild with my imagination because with you…the world was LITERALLY at my fingertips!

I thought we were in the most committed and loyal relationship, you and me.

You saw me through moments that no one else had.

You witnessed me grow from an ugly duckling to a beautiful swan and supported me every step of the way.

You were my everything.

I loved you.

And I was never pressed because I just KNEW that you would always be there…

Until you weren’t.

You fooled me.

You deceived me.

You straight up lied to me.

You made me think I had ALL of you.

You made me comfortable and then you ripped the floor right from beneath me.

…I trusted you with everything…with everyone…

With my friends…with my family…with my heart…

I gave you ALL my mind, my hopes, my dreams, my energy…

But now I’m here…confused…in disbelief…wondering if what we had was ever even real…

I honestly don’t know if I’ll ever be able to look at you the same way again…

I don’t know if your name will ever not give me pause in my soul…

I don’t know if I’ll ever heal from the betrayal you imposed on me…

You betrayed me, Time…

And I used to like you…

No…I used to I loved you…

I used to.